For a woman of many words, that’s a big deal. I’m not sure what exact moment the words left my mouth. Maybe it was when I watched the news feed on my iPhone last week. Or maybe it was when I realized my daughter had to go to school the next day and possibly be in harm’s way by psychopaths who decide to kill people. Or maybe it was when my beloved California’s most deadliest fire of all time in history, hit that underbrush at rapid speed. And took away my family’s malibu home. Either way, my heart has sort of gone black and all of a sudden I’m speechless.