All tagged twin mom life

THE 40 YEAR OLD MAMA

I like to think of seeing my life like I see great cinema. Frame by frame, moment to moment. And sometimes I like to just stop the tape right in the middle of it all, and observe it in black and white. And sometimes when you stop in the middle of a moment, and you observe, you capture the very reasons of why we are here. In black and white, plain and simple, to love and to exist in love.

THE WAGE OF AFFECTION

Last night I borderline made out with my boys. Not really, but you get me. We kissed goodnight, we did hugs, and it went on and on for what felt like hours. I didn’t want to stop. Neither did they. As I snuggled them together in a group mommy hug across both cribs, I said out loud while looking up at the ceiling, “Thank you God for tonight. For this. For my family. For this love.  I said “night night” to the twins, blew them a kiss and I walked out.

I’m overly affectionate. Most people that know me, know this about me. I like hugs. Kissing. Touching. Holding. All of it. It makes me calm. Makes my heart feel settled. Feels like love. 

WHERE IS MY FREAKING MOM MANUAL?

I know. Motherhood doesn’t come with one. There’s a trillion books out there covering everything from labor to childbirth to snotty noses to preschool, but the real shit? Nowhere to be found. Where’s my freaking manual? Cuz I need it, today. And I’m not sorry. 

I want my damn manual.