I’m trying to remember back to the exact day. It was very surreal. Finally pregnant and finally a sibling for my little girl. A sister I prayed. I think I said it out loud over and over again so God could hear me loud and clear. “Give my girl a little sister. Please Lord.” How perfect it would be. How enormous a love would transpire amongst my household in a pink fluffy fairytale. Honestly, I thought I had it in the bag. Then the tiny little computer screen showed two babies in my belly, not one, and only a few short weeks later, the doctors would tell me that I have two identical boys arriving in 7 months. BOYS.
I’m not even sure I was 3. Maybe I was almost three. Or maybe I was 4. But for some reason today, I remember it as 3. And this is how it was for me, at 3.
Read MoreI know. Motherhood doesn’t come with one. There’s a trillion books out there covering everything from labor to childbirth to snotty noses to preschool, but the real shit? Nowhere to be found. Where’s my freaking manual? Cuz I need it, today. And I’m not sorry.
I want my damn manual.
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